It is better that I live alone for now...

I am so tired but need to take care of pesky little details and practicalities; need to remember to give notice to the tenant of my apartment, hire moving company etc. Can't wait to get out of this big and empty apartment that just keeps reminding me how we failed to make it ours.

Sonja threw me thought an idea about moving together with Ulf for a change but I am not ready to propose it to him. I proposed moving together to Roc and almost like it jinxed the relationship. Since that we started to drift apart. I don't want to do same for me and Ulf. It is better that I live alone for now.