Scary and wonderful same time...

My thoughts again come back to the naming ceremony and linkage it created to Draden and Roia… and indirectly to Rocius. Even if we would break up with him the next day the link to Draden and Roia would be there until they are old enough. Even I and Roc don't have any official tie to each others, I am still a little bit a mother to his children no matter what... that in a way is first link between us... it is kind of scary and wonderful. Wonderful because even idea of permanent tie between us makes my hart jump and scary because still when we are separated I keep wondering can this work out... and we are separated a lot... scary and wonderful same time.