I hope we could be friends...

I'm fine... Oh how familiar tone and selection of words. Your not lying when you pick a neutral world that tells other that your physically fine, even if your your soul is hurting, the other one will hear you'r good. Then I saw him at the office so angry and irritated. Obviously something had happened. I couldn't let it pass, I had to try.

He had lost a big crew, a battleship I think. He was so angry to himself, beating himself about it. If he would have been upset for loosing a shiny toy like many pilots would have been in that situation, I would have left him alone, but he was so upset about losing the crew. I couldn't help to remember how I have lost clones and how the most unlikely pilot... Veren... was then the one to be for me. Different situation and different kind of loss yes, but still I couldn't help thinking that maybe it is my turn to be the most unlikely person to be there if he wants company, be someone that distracts at least a bit the bad feeling, get your thoughts even for a moment to different path. I don't know did I do any good there, did I got trough his self-beating, but I tried to remind him that he is just a human too and he wouldn't be human if he wouldn't do mistakes occasionally.

Something he said keeps bothering me. When I asked did he loss any close friends in the crew... I don't have close friends... That sound so lonely. Who ever told him he needs to be more social was correct, everyone needs a close friend.

He has started finally to use my real name, not just Ms Avriette, so when saying good bye I wanted to use his name not just call sign and then it occurred to me that I probably have never heard anyone to use it. So I asked it... Rag'Nakhan. He seemed so confused about that. I think everyone should have someone that calls him by his real name.

The whole discussions reminds me of discussions which I have had with Veren. No idea was it appreciated, did I really got through to him, he is just so hard to read.

But he is now one the few that seem to be willing to really work with me in second shift. I would like to know him better, I hope we could be friends.