I had the weirdest discussion with Apis. I can't remember when Apis would have voluntarily contacted
me just to be social... yeah social … Apis!
But I have to admit it was nice. I have
never known Apis really, maybe I haven't tried enough or maybe he
hasn't given me chance for it. It's weird, but he managed to ask how
I have been in a way that he got the most honest answer from all the
people who have been asking that. Ok I didn't went and go and
complain about how I sleep badly or that I am having depressed
thoughts at the evenings. But I did say to him more than I am ok and
getting used to be back to space. In a way it was refreshing to talk
with a person with whom I don't have to look all strong and well
doing or otherwise they go and worry too much or feel obligated to be
there for me. In a way I have missed that kind of strong but neutral
friend. Maybe that is the reason I actually answered him.
Although I wouldn't say he is a friend
quite yet. In a way he reminds me of Veren. At best he is willing to
be there, listen others, perhaps support them, but he is still very
reluctant to voluntary talk about himself, give any personal
information out. Amusingly I can recognize that if he would be
opening up a bit more and would put effort charming me I might even
fall for him. How many time I have burn my hart with just the type of
like him. I did even fall for Veren even when he didn't open up, just
charmed me.
But it sounded like Apis is looking to
be more social, perhaps looking a friend. We'll see where this leads.
Maybe we will become a friends. But sheesh that was so not like Apis I know.
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