I wish it would be simple...

I so don't know what to think about you. I thought it would be simple. Just some pretty face M has picked up from the bar, CVA pet. I'll smile to you while you are around, maybe even be friendly to you in order to make you like me, you could be useful contact. But I should have guessed, it never is so simple. You and M seem to be seriously fall in love and falling deeper all the time. The more I talked with you the clearer it is that its not that simple. You have been sold to slave by your own father as young kid. You don't call it that way, but even if your master is nice and encourages you meet people and do things and you love him, you still are slave and don't know better. You seem to be nice girl, but pretty naive. You say you are Caldari in Minmatar skin. I guess you are raised that way by your master.

I talked with you about the CVA connection, after that I am pretty sure I can trust you there. But then you moved to another Caldari corp that is not CVA affiliated, but in Caldari militia. I can understand your reasons. For Minmatars looking your corp Caldari militia is smaller evil than CVA and you wants to get to know other Minmatars and get to know better your culture. I can see all that, but for me joining Caldari Militia and shooting my people is also bad. I don't believe into the war between State and Federation, but I can not accept State occupy Federation regions and planets. You say you don't participate the war much but you also say you are loyal to Ishukone that also tells something about you. I could have just lied to you, consider you enemy I can just use, but I didn't. I was honest, I told you how I feel. S. freaked out over that, made it worse. I had to leave, I didn't want to burst into tears in front of everyone. I talked with you the next day, we are OK now or more like back to square where we were previously. Not friends but not hostiles either, trying to figure out what we are. It is actually ironic that I seems to be in OK terms with the Caldaries around here but then I have troubles with Caldari/Gallante relations with a Minmatar persons.

This would be easier if it would be logic against hart, but my hart tells me you are a sweet girl, but it also tells me that shooting my people is wrong. Of course there is third option...You could be just damn clever spy. The role of innocent and sweet girl could be just perfect, that would win your way to the hart of most people. I don't believe into this option, I am usually pretty good at reading people, but it is option. I wish it would be simple.